New YeaR

My new years resolutions are important to me. It's a mini attempt at changing myself bit by bit and so far it seems to work. Last year I decided to eat only one plate and I did, losing 9kg's and changing my lifestyle. Hooray for me!!!! This year, my resolution destined to be successful is, I will not do hard drugs. At the end of the year at least I KNOW I will have had one success. Then My to-do resolution is; I want to drive in such a way that I avoid speed tickets... A more difficult one since I'm a speed freak! The Personal one is; I will be honest with myself, after all who loses out but me if I lie to myself? The let's-finish-this-one is I MUST finish my thesis!!! And strangely the most difficult one is the one I make to spoil myself in some way. Last year I resolved to wear perfume every day and I Failed...tsk, tsk. So far I've not come up with one, but I give myself time till end of Jan to think. If anyone out there has a meaningful suggestion, I'm all ears!

Perspectives

Last night at about this time I spoke to a dear and old friend. he talked about his terrible pain, a pain that doctors could not diagnose. He spoke of how doctors lost interest if their solution failed. He told of the anti-depressants he was on. My last words to him were, "Ek hoop jou pyn gee jou rus vanaand." "I hope your pain gives you respite tonight." This morning my son called. Krikkie Kruger a dear and long-time friend had died of a massive heart attack. He was only 51 years old.
" And they, since they
Were not the one dead, turned to their affairs" (Frost)

Today I mourned, in tears and memories. Death is always always too soon.

Just a thought

It's quite late. The house is quiet except for the cat. She needs a room. my study is out of bounds because the hamster lives here. I think I'm 5 seconds away from giving up on capital letters, I so often mistype them. I'm not e e cummings but I think he had a point, it's just easier and he made it into poetry.
I'm not sure why I write this blog. I hate the schlep of getting here, I often lose my posts I prefer the written word. Tonight I have no answer.

"Server cannot be found"

Spring Time

"Spring is like a perhaps hand
(which comes carefully out of Nowhere)"

It seems one moment it's still winter and then Spring is about in frail green leaves, new bird songs and people move with some smile in their walks. My Spring arrives with birds. Tiny birds appear in my garden and one day I hear the call of a "Piet my vrou" a shy dull looking bird with a call full of memories of long sunny days and slow sunsets. The vineyards are newly green and somehow you can smell the possibility of great wines and imagine even greater occasions for drinking them.
Me, I love the winter and the summer can be pretty hot at times but spring is just perfect, like the littlest bear's porridge, not too hot and not too cold, just right!

"The sound of music"

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7EYAUazLI9k&annotation_id=annotation_72265&feature=iv%3e
If you haven't seen the above youtube yet, do try to find it and just smile. What is it about "The Sound of music" that makes it, for me at least, such a pleasure to watch over and over again? Maybe it's the catchy tunes, the "triumph over evil" or maybe it's just the exuberance of the film as a whole. Everything works out for the best and it's done to uplifting joyful music. Wouldn't a little life tune be fun sometimes?